The Start Conversation

I have always wanted to take a huge road trip on my own. I know how dangerous that is, I know how lonely I would get and I know how much money that would be, but it doesn't change anything. I want to do something adventurous, out of the ordinary. I keep thinking if I can just get away I can mean something or discover something, be a different person. I have waited a long time to take that journey and I knew if I got the chance, I would come back changed.

However, as I begun to think about all this, I realized I don't have to go away and I shouldn't wait on something to change me; I need to and can change myself. I am already on a trip and I have everyday to change something about me, to do something exciting or worth while. I am always waiting to do something, and I know there are certain things you have to wait for, but the things I want to do, I can start doing now. It just will take me actually starting it.

You know when you had to (or have to) write and essay and the hardest part is actually sitting down and starting? Once you've started, everything flows and you can go back and fix things if necessary. If I can just start something, this one thing in particular, I know it will flow and be okay, but where to start? How to start? How come I keep pushing it off? Is it because there is no actual due date?

How do you start your life you want to live? By making decisions; by sticking my them. A noble person does not just become noble by only wanting to be, they make the decision and then stick by it. I want to be a person who doesn't waste their words, stands up for what's right, makes hard decisions, and actively pursues challenges. Who isn't judgemental, who doesn't care for appearances, doesn't need approval from everyone. I want to chase my vision and have hope it will come true.

All I have to do is start. I can't wait for someone to tell me what to do. I've done that long enough. I have to tell myself. I have to stand up to the opposing side and start being the person I want to be.