100 Things About Me

1. I hope to one day realize it's not about me.
2. I can manipulate any situation. I somehow explain myself and even if I know I'm wrong, I'll put some kind of logic to it and make myself and you believe I was doing it with the best intentions.
3. I want to be the kind of person people want around when they are in a fix.
4. I think of people I want in the car with me when I hear certain songs.
5. I always space twice after the period in a sentence.
6. "Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas" is my favorite Christmas song. The words are all you could wish for in a Christmas.
7. My favorite band is Counting Crows.
8. I don't like Ranch Dressing on my salad and I would like to meet the person who said it is the staple dressing.
9. I love everything about ski trips and hate the idea of snowboarding only because both of your feet are trapped and cannot move independently. I know I'll have to try it one day and it's suppose to be so much more trendier than skiing, but, it freaks me out.
10. For the longest time I had reoccurring war dreams. They all centered around the church I go to and they always had different rules and objectives.
11. When I was young, I had to be pulled out of the classroom for speech therapy.
12. I have no time for show-offs.
13. I love to read, and I feel lazy and as if something is missing if I don't have a book to be reading.
14. I love teaching people anything.
15. I am happiest with a script in my hand and my feet on a stage.
16. I punched my sister in the back once. She was leaning over the sink about to brush her teeth and there it was and I was mad. I also threw a dart at her that stuck in her foot.
17. It takes a lot to make me angry with you. It takes even more for me to approach you about my problem with you. However, I believe that is changing. I realize I can't do that anymore or I'll go insane and my hives will continue. . . that cannot happen.
18. I don't have as much money as some think I do. Just because my parents have money, doesn't mean I do.
19. One of my favorite things to do is listen to the wind.
20. I have a hat full of tricks on the trampoline.
21. I'm good at making a fire and keeping it going.
22. Once you're my friend, good friend, I don't ever count you out as being one. We can not talk for years and I still count you as my friend. I don't change that much, so if you were my friend then, why can't you be my friend now? Hopefully I've learned to be an even better friend than before.
23. I am very loyal.
24. I can't stand Hot Pockets.
25. I need to be more conscious that I slouch. I'll always catch myself and the fact that I always catch myself tells me that I always slouch.
26. I love a good card game. Phase 10 is my favorite.
27. I hate when people are losing a game and want to then give up.
28. When I get scared at night, I'll stay up all night and wont sleep till it's light outside. I hate the feeling of waking up alarmed.
29. I was born on March 29th and I have always thought March is the best month because it gives great weather. I have often wondered if I was not born in March, would I still feel the same way, or does everyone feel that way about their own birth month?
30. I often get too emotionally attached to fictional characters.
31. I forget where I placed my keys, license, debit card and favorite hat ALL THE TIME!
32. I cannot spell worth a crap. (I use to have a best friend that used the word "crap" a lot.) I wish I could spell better, but I don't know how to do that.
33. I have never wanted to grow up. I never imagined my life after 18, so right now I'm not sure what I should be doing. You know how people are always saying you take your youth for granted? I never did; I knew I would miss it and now I miss my childhood so much I makes me overwhelmingly sad. Sometimes it's all I can think of.
34. I get talked over a lot, but I have one friend that makes an effort to stop and listen and one friend that isn't making an effort, but just does it instinctively.
35. My friend, Brandon, probably understands my moods more than anyone and he understands my scatterbrainedness too.
36. I don't have the slightest trouble going to a movie or eating at a restaurant by myself. But I don't mind people either, in case you wanted to ask me on a date:)
37. Indecision makes me nervous.
38. My feet and hands are always cold.
39. I have trouble realizing my parents are people too. I always tell them of my day and my thoughts but I never think they have a day too. I guess I think they really want to know about me because they are related to me, but I bet they just see me as anyone else and wish I would ask them about their day.
40. I don't ever know what to get my mom for Christmas.
41. This number will always mean something to me.
42. I could watch back to back movies all day long. I love the movies.
43. I think nature is so beautiful and seeing it puts an ache in my heart.
44. I cry more when something is moving than sad. But most breakdown cries are because I'm tired and stressed.
45. I find a real joy and belongingness at summer camps.
46. I'm always unsure what to say when people ask how's your mom or how's your dad. Surely they don't really want to know and even if they did, I probably wouldn't tell them because we're that kind of family, so I always say "They're just fine. They travel a lot with their work, but they like it a lot."
47. I have a fetish for school supplies and Christmas decorations.
48. I check the mail everyday hoping for a letter or something for me. I get really bummed when the mail is already taken in.
49. I wish I had better teeth.
50. I really liked my first car and I was really sad to part with it.
51. I always seem to be the person the lightbulb goes out on.
52. I can't ever keep my room clear of clothes. They are not even necessarily dirty clothes, they're just clothes I get out and don't wear and they end up on the floor. My room most of time looks like a sea of clothes.
53. I threw up at Las Palmas once. I had a really bad headache.
54. I have lost my favorite blue sweat shirt I got at a thrift store that said something about France on it. I loved that sweat shirt. If you have it, please return it.
55. I have always wanted a pet skunk. They are said to be quite lovable.
56. I do not like mint chocolate. I had too much of it at once and now I can't stand it.
57. I have dreams that I can remember every night.
58. I have more bad yearbook pictures than good.
59. I enjoy inflatable obstacle courses. I really like obstacle courses in general. I use to make them when I was a kid for Cortney and I to run through. However, Cortney never did them.
60. I think people are more alike than we think we are.
61. The first time I watched Star Wars I didn't know it was such a big deal. I found it in the tape pile at my babysitter's house and thought it was just a random movie. It wasn't till later when I saw it with my family I even knew it was something big. Same thing with Ferris Buler's Day Off.
62. Ernest Scared Stupid was the scariest movie. I not only had nightmares but was petrified for weeks.
63. I use to pretend I had no fear when pulling some of the youthlike stunts with my cousin, Chad, but really the whole time I was scared out of my wits. But I did it anyway and it taught me to not be so scared.
64. I wanna dance with somebody.
65. I could have been a great sound engineer, but I don't think I would have liked it.
66. I whistle alot even though I'm not good at it.
67. I have frequent headaches.
68. I can wiggle my ears.
69. I am a fast video game learner. I like them alot.
70. I don't like dusting. The main pain about it is moving all the stuff off the counter and then dusting and then putting it all back.
71. I use to be at the fore front of the music movement. I prided myself on finding unknown bands and cool music. However, I have slipped and now I am recovering and climbing back up the musical hill.
72. I wish I was a good singer so I could be in musicals.
73. The silence the snow fall brings is special to me.
74. I like ink pens, but not ball point pens.
75. I like making list (obviously), but not as much as scratching them off.
76. I like to talk about psychology, not so much the disorders but more about people's motives for making certain desicions.
77. Shots make me really, really, really queezy. Not so much the pain, but the knowledge that something just went into my veins.
78. I hate to see children be disrespectful to adults. When I see it happen, it makes me so embarrassed for the adult.
79. I was involved in a "Haunted Field" once. All the kids at our babysitters made one up in the field behind the babysitter's house. My role was to jump out of a pile of leaves.
80. I am an excellent rollerblader and a pretty competant ice skater.
81. I can still remember my perfect nap ever.
82. My family and I always watch White Christmas while putting up the Christmas Tree.
83. I hate when people have carpet outside their bath/shower. Stepping onto carpet after the shower is so nasty to me.
84. I love a good history lesson.
85. My favorite desert is chocolate chip cookies.
86. If no one would think it's weird, I woud wear baseball t-shirts all the time.
87. I'm a sucker for a lost dog. I have to follow it and make sure it knows where it's going, or get out, find it's tag and return it.
88. I hate seeing animals ran over, but I especially hate seeing a roadkill raccoon, seeing that it's the Tennessee Stage Animal and all.
89. When I go for long periods of time without seeing my sister, I miss her a whole, whole lot, same with my dad.
90. It took me a long time to get on the flip-flop bandwagon. But I'm so glad I did.
91. I have had the same kind of tennis shoes since I was a Sophomore in high school. Grey Newbalnces. Even when one pair wears out, I will go out and buy the same exact shoes to replace them.
92. I think there is something in my blood that attracts ticks. I get SO many ticks.
93. I hate snakes. I hate snakes. IIIII HATE snakes!
94. Road trips anywhere make me really happy and feel really alive.
95. My favorite number is 18.
96. I have had the same CD case since sixth grade.
97. I do not like seafood. (save popcorn shrimp, but that's not really a seafood lover's dish.)
98. I think 3-D movies are so much fun.
99. I do not like plain M&M's but I could eat Peanut M&M's all day long.
100. This list is subject to change.

Why This?

This is my first time ever blogging. I might be late on the bandwagon, but who says late bandwagoners are any less important to the movement? I am basically trying to figure out how this works and the in's and out's and such. So, probably nothing interesting will come of this first post. I am not even sure what my blog will be about; although I guess it doesn't have to be about anything. It will definitely not be a journal because I won't up date it too much, but I think it can be a sort of creative release. I have all these thoughts and I get anxious if I don't express them in someway. I'll get into a mood or a way of thinking and I have to get it out in order to understand it or let it go or to expand it. That use to mean painting, making some sort of craft, playing guitar, running, but lately I have been interested in writing. So, I'm sure this will be a phase and I'll abandon it and move on to the next thing, but, for now, let the phase begin.